Mostly Away from the Computer

I've been away from the computer recently, after getting a part-time job that requires I use the computer all morning.

The Baba dreams continue -- sometimes about Baba, sometimes about the Meher Spiritual Center. Odd though, that I never dream about Meherabad or Meherazad. However, in the last dream I had about the Meher Spiritual Center, Bhau was living in an attic room in a building there, and I went up and visited him, and we talked about when we first met in 1984. In that dream, the Original Kitchen was high up on a hill, and the lake seemed far, far below. It was almost like looking down a bowl in the high mountains, to a little mountain lake. There were some children down in the lake, and I saw one go under water, and I was concerned that the other children were trying to drown him, but then I relaxed thinking, "that kind of bullying doesn't happen here." There was also some confusion about the room my wife and I were staying in. Someone else was already there. That's all I remember of that dream.

In the last dream I remember having of Baba, he was alive and in a room like an elementary school cafeteria. He was signing books, though not with his regular signature; he was just swiping the pen across the page. I thought, "cool, I can get a book signed by Meher Baba!" But he looked over at me with a suffering, pleading look that said, "no, please don't" It's the only dream I've had of him where he really seemed to be in pain, and I was very startled and concerned, even in the dream, and I sat back down and stayed where I was.

It so happens that I had been keeping an eye out for Meher Baba items on Ebay through a saved search. I would get excited on the rare occasion that a signed copy of God Speaks came up for sale, though, given my limited budget, I was never even able to come close in the bidding. After that dream, I deleted my saved search, and I haven't searched for Meher Baba items on Ebay since. It's not about sadras, sandals, and signatures after all. Chances are, the dream had nothing to do with my Ebay searching, but just in case it was a direct order to lay off, or even worse that such searching for artifacts was creating some sort of suffering, I thought I should discontinue. It's not often that I get the chance to feel like I may be obeying a direct request from Baba.